Allegiant

Allegiant

When her body first hit the net, all I registered was a gray blur. I pulled her across it and her hand was small, but warm, and then she stood before me, short and thin and plain and in all ways unremarkable- except that she had jumped first. The Stiff had jumped first.
Even I didn't jump first.
Her eyes were so stern, so insistent.
Beautiful.

I'm still...... I'm still in shock. I can't. I just can't.

I'm going to do this book review different than any of the other book reviews I've ever written. This was the last book in my favorite series, and it deserves to be important, beautiful. I'm not going to tell you that this will be spoiler free, because it probably won't be. I won't tell you who dies, even though there are many deaths, some that will impact you more than others. I'm only going to include my review of this book... and if you have read the first two, please read this. I won't spoil any major plot points or give away the very unexpected ending. Let me tell you something about this ending. When I was looking through the spoiler-free Allegiant reviews, everyone was saying the same thing, the ending was heartbreaking.

Dear readers, it was.
Something I can tell you about me? I have never shed a single tear while reading a book. I held it in after reading Where the Red Fern Grows, bit my lip to keep it from trembling when I finished the Fault in Our Stars. This ending, I could not take. My eyesight grew blurry, until finally, five small tears dripped onto the final page. Despite this, I was smiling through my tears.



Did I like the ending? Heck no. It sucked. It broke my heart about a million freaking times right in a row. Should you still read this book? Yes, you still need to finish the series, and you must know what happens. The big question that everyone asks: Do they go outside the fence? The answer, really, won't spoil much because it is kind of obvious, and introduced early in the book. Yes, yes, they do. And what they find beyond it-it's life changing.

I don't belong to Abnegation, or Dauntless, or even to Divergent. I belong to the people I love, and they belong to me-they, and the love and loyalty I give them, form my identity far more than any word or group ever could.

This review is currently over... because I can't even... I can't. I will post a longer and less... infuriatingly confusing review after I have at least some time to process this.